“When we
remember we are all mad, the mysteries disappear and life stands explained.”
~Mark Twain
What if there was a less physical
explanation for the little aches and pains and twinges we get? What if the
instances of annoyance we suffer were more a product of our inner disagreement?
What if our anxiety or depression or doubting were, equally, the result of
something we have, until now, never known about ourselves?
What if there is a fact about each
one of us that stands to explain our confounding lives?
Of course, to entertain these
questions there must be an openness of heart, and the preparedness to reason,
sensitively, with the irrational. Perhaps only in coming to the messy
inordinance of life—accepting our unacceptability—staring our despicability in
the face—can we face our madness.
Can we agree that, in agreement
with Twain, we are all, to a degree, mad?
But, first, we must get over our
local default to deny our madness—for none of us wants to be identified for
admission into the asylum. None of us wants to be imprisoned as a mad person.
And because of this push to protect our madness, to somehow control it by
containing it, it becomes dangerously dormant like Vesuvius. The worst possible
encounter is that we might ‘blow’ our lava in unprecedented and unpredictable
ways; making headline News.
Fearlessly Approaching Our Fear
The fact of approaching our inner
madness in candour is terrifying for the average, sane person. There is no way
we want to be seen as pathological, disrupted inside, given to insanities of
thought and feeling.
But if we remember the Twain
quote, we can begin to explore the fact that most people—generally all of
us—have insane dissonances rattling around inside us.
When we get to thinking that
insanity is insanely commonplace we don’t need to hide away our embarrassing
tendencies from ourselves. We get to understand that others, also, have their
embarrassing tendencies, too.
Only when we can appreciate the
instances of madness, in truth, will parts of our lives begin to make sense.
Only when we can appreciate our undoneness, accepting same, can we see
ourselves as more done up—albeit imperfectly.
What Might Help Our Hidden Symptoms Of
Trouble
We may be able to connect two
thoughts; two phenomena that may, until now, have been hidden from our
understanding. These two phenomena—our madness and our complaints—may be so
connected it may astound us.
The repression of our madness may
explain the exacerbation of our complaints.
What if certain irreconcilable
issues (aches or pains, anxieties, fleeting mad thoughts, angering realities,
etc) were linked with something, until now, we never knew, or found just so
unacceptable that we repressed them from conscious thought?
The truth is, as ‘normal’ people,
and priding ourselves as ‘normal’ people, we have repressed instances of
madness and propensities of insanity to protect ourselves.
If we can grow in accepting more
the unacceptable we may actually diminish the instances of certain aches and
pains, anxieties, fleeting mad thoughts, angering realities, etc, and other
problems.
***
There is much about us we do not accept.
Some of this is too scary; hidden from every other soul. We keep certain things
hidden from the world because exposure could prove devastating. The fact is we
all have a little madness dormant within. The key is accepting it—not being
afraid of it. When we can let it exist, life begins to make more sense.
As we accept more the unacceptable
within, we may actually diminish our pain and live more contented lives.
© 2012 S. J. Wickham.
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