There are times when we’re
perplexed beyond the moment’s hope. All thinking has stopped and all that
remains of our conscious beings is feeling—estranged feeling. When confusion
reigns within, even for one minute, we can panic or get angry or become sad. We
don’t experience peace at these times.
But we can.
We can, if we avail upon ourselves
the possibility that in all situations there can be peace. But peace can come
only when our self-imposed pressure is reduced.
The Occurrence Of Lost Days
Many of our days are lost in many
different ways. There’s something inexplicable about the lost day—that period
of time where we’re far from our perfect selves. When we accept these horrible
days for what they are, without analysing them too much, just enduring them, we
learn something about ourselves and life.
We learn we’re free to do
this—that we’re free to struggle—that struggling, in many ways, is
acceptable—if we can deem it as acceptable.
There must be some answer to
situations of life where confusion reigns. One day we’re sad, the next we
achieve a great deal, and the following day we’re frustrated. Every day is
different; some are brighter than others, whilst others are contemptible.
Maybe the honest life, one taken
at authentic face value, is a lot less thoroughly perfect than we’d pretend, or
like, it to be. In any one week there may be just two really good days. Two or
three may be ambivalent experiences. And two or three may be woeful. Which ones
are the lost days? We might only learn from the ambivalent or woeful days. The
lost days may actually be the really good ones.
What To Do With Confusion
Our starting point was poignant.
There are times when our thinking goes AWOL. Whether what’s caused it is
overload, or a troubled relationship, or an unexplained reason matters little.
The important thing is how we might pour God’s grace over ourselves and
diminish the pressure such that our right minds may, of their own time, return.
On any of our not-so-good days we
may easily fall into the trap of getting frustrated with ourselves for the
sadness or anger or incapacity we feel. But such frustration won’t do us any
good. It will only make things worse.
Reducing the pressure,
particularly self-imposed pressure, is the order of the day. Times like these
our feelings devoid of thinking need to ensure we protect ourselves.
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We have no reason to expose
ourselves when we’re vulnerable. On sad, mad or bad days it’s fine to accept
what is, and reduce the pressure on ourselves. A strange peace can be felt at
such times because we’re being gentle with ourselves.
© 2012 S. J. Wickham.
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