“You can
get the monkey off your back, but the circus never leaves town.”
~Anne Lamott
There are many thoughts that come
to people’s minds at the notion of ‘recovery’. There’s the day-to-day recovery
of fatigue completed by sleep, recovery from injury, and even recovery for
fatigue of the mind, heart, soul, and spirit.
But what’s in the frame is perhaps
the most obvious form of recovery. We all have things we need to recover from:
an addiction, a dependency, our grief; any bad land of the soul that, with
resilience, we can push truthfully past, and enter new life.
Everyone who’s successfully
recovered from anything, or, perhaps more aptly put, are successfully in
recovery from, know that from within them there is mastery for having
successfully endured the pain required of recovery. New life they’ve tasted.
That Necessary Pain
Nothing worthwhile in this life is
enjoyed without the pain implicit of the work needed to be done. Whilst that
might be a sad fact for so many, it proves inspirational to any who push on
past their present difficulty and find eventual new life.
There is no new life that is not
significant.
But to get through to that
significance, the vestiges of life we have a vision for, for we may often feel
‘life must be better than this’, the necessary pain of early recovery, of
getting used to how things need to be, is the work to be done. Nobody likes
this work. Nobody wants to be shackled to an agenda not their own. Nobody
enjoys having to relinquish their control; surrendering it to their Higher Power.
The most poignant of all our pain
is the characterisation of the emotions. Early recovery is the emotional turmoil of hell on earth. But
this emotional turmoil is an important touchstone if we can have a steadiness within
us to just hold it. That doesn’t seem much, but holding our emotions, and being
real within them, is a tremendous achievement for anyone.
The Significance In New Life
There is no new life that is not
significant. Having endured the relative torture in doing the work of recovery,
especially in the early going, as we trudge in faith, holding our emotion world
together as much as possible, owning it, we enjoy later highlights of
confidence. We are doing this thing!
That is the new life; doing this new thing.
In leading a life beyond the
entrapment of the former thing, we redeem a vast quantity of personal control.
We feel God’s blessing resting upon us. We feel literally reborn.
***
To master the art of recovery we
necessarily need to continually practice it; to work toward becoming recovered,
which in some cases may never actually occur. Sometimes there is just more
work. But that is okay, for recovery is a million times better than the old
life.
We cannot truly be said to have
recovered unless we stay recovered.
© 2012 S. J. Wickham.
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