“Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.”
~Step 3, Twelve Steps Program
Recovery: the realness of it.
Emotional turmoil got us here, into our present pain, and there is to be more emotional turmoil as we scratch at and wrangle with this very pain. This is a battle.
Nothing will be harder; nothing.
Yet, nothing harder is made easier, astoundingly so, by the grace of God availed to us by our surrender.
This availability needs to be believed. Surrender makes it sure. We can reconcile all possible things if we can achieve surrender—a thing so easy, yet paradoxically so very hard—and recovery, a day at a time, even a moment, is made easier. It’s made possible.
Regarding something that feels impossible to so many, it is now seen through different eyes. The experience is new. Freshness breathes life into this possibility—through surrender is freedom.
Freedom Only Through Surrender
Surrender is the only way we can manage, with good effect, these boiling emotions.
It’s the only way we can stand in the presence of the impossible. But the trick is it needs to become habitual, practiced to the point of clean availability, for the sneaky times of weakness enrol us to temptation at the least expected moment.
These sneaky times of weakness, for which were built for our surrender, are held at bay by the admission of our incapacity. Only when we can admit we have no answer do we climb upon the scaffolding of God to get us through.
God has given us weakness in order to remind us of a power that beats it all—by being true in it. This is the vitality of surrender—that we give up our false pretences and thought that we can manage without God. We can’t.
The Centre And Very Purpose Of Surrender
The moment in life when we fall upon a revelation—that we control hardly anything, and there is One who has ultimate control—is the moment, with never more irony, that we sniff the pleasing aroma of freedom. And this is the centre and very purpose of surrender.
To admit our powerlessness; to acknowledge God’s all-encompassing power; to draw upon that Gap.
That Gap, which we sensed beforehand as insurmountable, God fills. He fills it with divine grace which is accessed, as a gift from God, by our surrender.
The Performance Of Surrender
Surrender doesn’t have to be happiness, contented with its lot. No, it’s realer than that. It takes what ‘is’ as it is and has a mood about it that asks no more in that moment.
In that moment is the knowledge of God.
The biggest paradox known to life is power—how ours is so limited, yet God’s is so infinite. When we learn that surrender is the key to tapping into the power of God our problems, and our recovery, are made easier; even possible when they seemed so impossible.
© 2012 S. J. Wickham.