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Best moments of life occur when trust abides in pain.
It’s the ability to hold in one’s mind two disparate realities —
the suffering moment with the hope we simply must hold to. We believe that soon
God will show us a way to hold these disparate realities together, beautifully
in tension.
This is summed up in Psalm
13 — a psalm of David. The beautiful thing about
this psalm is that it becomes personal when suffering lasts and lasts,
enfolding itself over itself, when grief compounds over time.
Grief lasts longer than we ever believe it should or could.
But grief if a goad; it prompts us to press deeper.
But grief if a goad; it prompts us to press deeper.
Grief comes cloaked as a ninja instructor. Life cannot teach us
what we need to learn, so grief steps into the breach. Grief takes us to deeper
places than life, as it routinely is, can. Life is a handicap; it propounds a
disability. Without grief’s equipping we cannot teach far. We cannot go far.
And we cannot take others far. We certainly can’t take others where we haven’t
been, unless we go together and learn from each other.
The ability that grief teaches us is not only rebound-ability,
which would be enough, but it plumbs us deeper into the very soul-terrain of why it is important. Without knowing
‘why’ we have very little motive to want to engage.
The prayer of Psalm 13 gives the impression that David was able
in his mindset to turn from despair to trust in a very short time. That can
seem our nemesis. When we are perplexed we can’t quite seem to rebound mentally
and emotionally with nimbleness because of our spiritual anguish. But this
psalm offers us the possibility that rebounding within a short time is not only
possible but that it has been done.
Our task is to believe grief
is the catalyst for a miracle;
that the miraculous can be done
amid even our very own life.
is the catalyst for a miracle;
that the miraculous can be done
amid even our very own life.
And without suffering we would not have the opportunity. See how
suffering delivers us the opportunity? See how through our suffering we have
the opportunity to learn something transformational, and we thereby stand to
attest to God’s power to deliver us from the evil of being bonded to despair.
The beauty of Psalm 13 is that it asks pressing questions of
God, and even demands that He answer.
It’s a full range Psalm, holding nothing back. Surely, we must
know that God expects us to wrestle with Him in such a way that we demand
progress of our situations. God needs to know that we will search and leave
nothing back in our pursuit of all we are to know and experience about the
meaning in the despair we face.
In the end, despair is there to teach us something. God. Not
that God rescues us from despair in a way we no longer experience it, for we
will continue to experience it. Rescue is not the point. No, God hopes that we
will hope upon Him in our despair; that our choice is to trust Him even
when the circumstances in our lives continue to keep us down, for we have this
assurance:
The despair we experience
as a fundamental component of grief
brings us to a knowledge
of the unfailingness of God’s love,
as it connects us to Him
in a way we otherwise could not.
as a fundamental component of grief
brings us to a knowledge
of the unfailingness of God’s love,
as it connects us to Him
in a way we otherwise could not.
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