“I walked
a mile with Sorrow
And never
a word said she;
But, oh,
the things I learned from her
When
Sorrow walked with me.”
~Robert Browning Hamilton
Is there ever any meaning to our
suffering; I mean, real, raw, rancorous suffering?
We might cheat ourselves into
thinking some are spared the sorrow. But none are. Nobody in this life is
spared the craziness and perfunctory nothingness found revelling in pain. But
many of us bypass it, for a soothing drink or drug—and many varieties of ‘drug’
there are.
The poetic promise above is
gorgeously surreal in a very confronting way. Who, really, would walk that mile
with Sorrow unless they had to?
Who, really, would volunteer to
walk so frightfully alone, with a companion so ambivalently recalcitrant in her
way? The passage of sorrow is castigating, with tributaries down to numbness
and strobes of real sight that are blinding.
Walking alone with sorrow is the
bravest thing we could ever do.
Making A Fist Of The Impossible
Faith is a thing taking us each
step along that mile. Faith keeps us open for the learning that sorrow has for
us. Our faith meets with God’s sponsorship to ensure this journey is not
wasted, and indeed, becomes the making of us.
Making a fist of the
impossible—having faith enough to journey one step at a time—enduring the total
mile, somehow—is the courage to go on when we are blinded for sight, stuck for
breath, hankering for the food of joy, and leg weary.
None of the impossible is really
impossible to an unconquerable spirit. And who knows who has an unconquerable
spirit but the one who goes on? And how do we know if we have what it takes to
go on?
We may give up, even for a time.
These are just pauses along
that lonely mile. To give up would be to turn back, and the blessing of sorrow
doesn’t allow that. Sorrow commends us to the journey; to a journey we must
continue; a journey that is slow and faltering and wearying and despairing. But
it bends us forward.
Loving The Learning
One thing we can appreciate, even
in the midst of sorrow, is that we are learning.
We are learning about ourselves,
about life, about resilience, and about realities far-flung and altogether
surreal, until now.
Loving the learning is a sadistic
venture to the uninitiated observer. Our experience is different. We see the
value in sorrow even if others think it’s weird. And when we see such value we
appreciate we have become unconquerable. We are wedded to the gospel way.
© 2012 S. J. Wickham.
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