Why is it so in my distrust,
The moment of mistake,
That I take some self-disgust,
And add it to my heartache?
Somehow it is head and heart,
Nowhere are they connected,
Feared as well spread apart,
As if I hardly expected.
Forgiving ourselves for such times,
Moments of human lapse,
Brings forward the matter of healing crimes,
Acceptance abundant perhaps.
Self-recrimination is a common trait amongst the populace, mainly because we’re scared of others judging us, so we judge ourselves. It’s based in a sort of false humility. Even if it’s not based in a false humility, it’s attributable to the lowly self-esteem. We hate being wrong, and double is the mischief of embarrassment—a hurt ego.
The point is we’ll all battle with it.
Be Gentle – Then Do Better
A worthy habit to get into is being gentle with ourselves for any human lapse. Taken to God are these failures and repentance is known via a commitment to do better next time; to not give up in achieving the hitting-of-the-mark in future.
That’s the Gospel response: to allow God’s Spirit to revive us, not redeeming any semblance of condemnation for the act.
God knows how hard it is being us. He knows we battle with the flesh-felt desire to want to succeed, even more so in failure. So the Gospel has a way for us to treat these things. It’s to have it out with the Lord and then allow the Spirit’s grace to heal us.
In this we’re getting better; not at our best by a long shot—but getting better all the same. This, by simple virtue of our growing spiritual resilience.
Look up, look out, look hopefully.
© 2011 S. J. Wickham.