The earliest days of my recovery from binge drinking were heady. That was 7,500-odd days ago.
Even though I never for one moment missed alcohol, it was in fear and trembling that I counted one-day-at-a-time in my journey to sobriety — acutely aware that I was one temptation, one sip, away from a relapse.
With each day following the last, again and again and again, more confidence was built that I’d not return to what was for me the ‘demon drink’.
But recovery isn’t only about staying ‘dry’ — and AA majors on this through the Twelve Steps.
The steps aren’t a bandaid of abstinence, they are a program of life for transformation — into an inspiring life of ‘making amends’.
There is no better protection against relapse than cauterising the need to drink at its source by living a life of power and gratitude. This life is one of dealing with all fear, guilt, and shame. “Life” in all its abundance.
But there are still the initial days and weeks of getting sober, and that’s the stuff of wing-and-prayer.
Authentic recovery is both enduring and transforming. It must last and the changes we make must last. Both dimensions — time and growth — are needed for authentic recovery.
One thing we must accept as we do the maintenance steps 10-12 is that we cannot do another person’s recovery for them; that is THEIR work much as it was our work that we did or are doing. We cannot make it easier for anyone.
But one day at a time it works IF we work it.
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