“In our brokenness we come closer
to God and through that brokenness God is able to reach others in theirs. We
are instructed to give glory to God in whatever situation we find ourselves in
for he works his plan through us. Hard because we often can’t see it because of
our suffering, but we do see it in the end.”
— Vivienne Voysey
Faith is the
answer to this conundrum—the conundrum of suffering; of enduring same. Then we
might say, “What does this
faith look like when it is impossible to get through the next hour?”
It’s a question
that cannot be answered; only experienced, one survived moment at a
time—through the courage of faith.
The conundrums of
life which are maddening in the extremes, those which sometimes defy our
rationality that God is reasonable and loving, meet with the conundrums of
faith. Faith is something we cannot see or ever really fully define in tangible
ways for the masses. Faith is only ever known to be true through experience.
Both suffering
and faith are conundrums totally uncrackable without openness before God. And
the paradox is, suffering tempts us ever more to run so far away from God.
In suffering, the
thing we need most is often the thing we look for least: God.
In suffering, the
thing we need to get through is often in the opposite direction to that which
we are running: Faith.
To enter into
faith and to rely on God requires us to accept our periodic brokenness.
When we accept
and do not run, God can help. God can get us through. God is our only hope.
Understanding the
Purpose in Brokenness
It’s hard to say
this without sounding glib. But the truth must be told, again and again. We
will all suffer and we will all be broken. Many are broken more than most.
Yet, our
brokenness seems earth-shattering to us; it will tear us sinew from sinew in
our souls. Such pain in brokenness always takes us too far and it doesn’t
relent when we wish it to.
The surface
texture of brokenness is much smoother than what is inside. Other people cannot
possibly tell the pain we are going through, just as we cannot hope to know
much conception of their experience. But we can be there for each other.
What brokenness
shows us, when we suffer as Christ did, with a dignified courage that honours
God always, is where our power’s at. No human power or authority gives us grace
to cope with such hell.
Only God can give
us that power.
When, in the
midst of pain unrelenting and irrefutably noxious, we are called, somehow, to
present faithfully. This will take all the resources we can muster, and more!
This means we will need to rely on trusted others; mentors, loving family and
friends, pastors, etc. We will need to be loved by submitting ourselves within
fellowships that can hold us and contain us in our pain.
In all these ways
in our pain—through faith, through drawing closer to God, being honest and
courageously vulnerable in our brokenness, and submitting ourselves to loving
fellowship—God comes nearer (though, in truth, God is ever proximal).
© 2012 S. J. Wickham.
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