GIVING up is
such a strong option one day, then, with the healing power of God, through
surrendering, we are raised the day following. It is almost a routine
phenomenon for me. It is a learned state of enduring what cannot be reconciled
in the given day. Enduring such a day is simply about letting it happen.
New Year’s Day
2015 was one such memorable day where — for even a ten-minute period — I was
caught up in such a spiritual attack I seriously questioned my life. The day
was one of my worst. I was so viscerally discouraged, so betwixt and between,
given a circumstance or three that had overwhelmed me. Yet, my life overall was
replete with hope.
What had
happened that took me so far out to sea? Well, “what” is less of a help than “why?”
Why do we fall
for bad days that are harsh upon our experience; where our very existence is
drawn into question; when we cannot bear the contemplations of life?
And still more
an important question than “why” is “how do we reconcile the day?” How are we
to make the very most of something utterly bleak?
That January 1st
would be blotted out of my book if I’d have any say over it; yet, to do that
would miss something profound in the land of revelation borne of my Lord.
***
January 2nd
came. It came and I was a different man. Though I stumbled on that fateful
Thursday, Friday beckoned, as if by delivery that was prophesied from the
Ancients. My life would be okay. Though I stumbled one day, the next would not
see me fall.
God delivers us
when we don’t rally against him.
God takes what
was interminable — a sullied existence — and makes of it what he will, if we
are prepared to look in the mirror and admit, “I am not enough, yet you are, my
Lord!”
***
The best day
ever follows the worst day ever simply because hope for life returns. Yesterday
hope was vanquished. Today is new and pitch darkness is but a memory.
To reconcile the
day to hope is to move past what was.
To bring justice
to the present we simply say in our soul, “God, you are enough. I have no
further demands for life. Make of this day in my midst what you will.”
When we
willingly smile into a mirror, despite the longing of the day, we find our
souls saying, “God, you are enough for me.” Everything is ordered from there.
© 2015 Steve
Wickham.
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