King David, before he came to be Israel’s king,
was hemmed in within at least two caves and clearly suffered anxiety. We would
too, of course. But, as is recorded in Psalms 57 and 142, David’s anxiety
became manifest in two dipolar ways. Psalm 142 is more melancholy than Psalm
57. If we imagine being trapped by an enemy, and being worried about being
found in our hiding, our mood is bound to dither from cowardice to courage to
cowardice and back again, over and over so long as we remain in that situation.
In our ‘cave’ situations, it may
not be a human enemy—though it often is. It may be a workload. It may be
uncertainty regarding the future or indecision. It could be from any number of
things.
But anxiety inside the cave goes
from woefully bad to acceptably good to woefully bad again. The moment we get
into an acceptably good moment we think we have resolved our anxiousness; but
then it returns.
David’s Anxiousness In the Cave
David cried out to the Lord
from the cave:
“As I sink in despair, my spirit
ebbing away,
you know how I’m feeling,
Know the danger I’m in,
the traps hidden in my path.”
— Psalm 142:3 (Msg)
If we have ever been favoured over
an incumbent—someone who has held the position we are about to get—we will know
how David felt as he became Yahweh’s anointed in place of King Saul, who became
the envious one.
Perhaps we have been the one to be
replaced. We felt threatened and unjustly treated. But if we are the one coming
in to a new position, we may be the target of bullying. This, in turn, will
produce in us anxiety, because we don’t know where or when the attacks will be
coming from, only from whom.
I’ve had times in jobs where I’ve
been on both sides of the fence. One safety manager I replaced, because he had
made an error apparently worthy of being fired for, was very gracious in
handing over the reins to me. In this case I was very fortunate. But there was
another time when someone came in over me and I felt God requiring me to be
gracious in surrendering that role to this person. The fact that I lost the job
role was meant not for my harm, but for my good, as I later learned.
But the envy Saul felt, which
burned inside him, turned him more evil than before. We can imagine David
hiding in the cave with the men on his side, quite anxious, but drawing faith
from God, as he heard from Gad the prophet.
David’s daily experience ranged
from courage to cowardice, as ours does.
What David’s Anxiousness Teaches Us
It’s okay to feel anxious when we
are threatened. It’s normal. And in anxiousness we do vacillate from cowardice
to courage to cowardice.
When we are in the cave of our
circumstances—suffering anywhere from a moment of anxiety to a whole season—we
do well to pray; to praise God and add to our adoration our petitions for his
help.
“Do not worry about anything, but
in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be
known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard
your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”
— Philippians 4:6-7 (NRSV)
Prayer may not always allay our
anxiety, but it does acknowledge God as the one—the only one—who can help.
David prayed whenever he was
anxious or afraid; so should we when we are anxious or afraid. We go quietly to
God.
© 2012 S. J. Wickham.
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